On my past relationship reposted and added newer thoughts.

Well I guess she would'nt read this blog so ill give my thoughts on what happened between me and her... The crack in our relationship started when I was enchanted by this new boarder of my cousin's gf...

I was attracted to that girl. I had thoughts about courting her and having 2 gfs. I confess was so young then and I made bad decisions. (still made some bad decisions sigh) At one time I had lots of courage to ask her name and try to talk to her... I thought I had a big chance with that new boarder..

As the days pass I made a big mistake of telling ex that I think the new boarder was my soulmate(of course I warned her that it was a joke) BUT now I realize that struck a blow into ex's heart and now im very sorry for that. (still remorseful) That was my first big mistake..

The second was when we were talking and I mentioned that the new boarder was "pang display" while ex was i think "pang bahay" (not sure if that was it but i again unintentionally hurt her feelings) (im such a fuckin jerk). Those events contributed to the breakup, added with the fact that she was booming in her career (and lovelife with someone else lol kidding). One of other the reasons for the breakup was according to her nagkakasawaan na. Which for me up to now hindi pa pala ako nagsawa sa kanya. (well after 7 years the feeling is definitely not the same lol)

The fact is I screwed up, I let her go because I was so mayabang that I could find a replacement for her (Don't get me wrong, my primary reason for letting her go is because I want to give her what she wants) (yeah yeah the palayain ang isa't isa thing).. Guess what happened after some years: Here I am alone, depressed and failed to move on.(after 7 years still depressed but not because of her.) And she I believe is so happy with her life (happily married :))...

The boarder girl I was fantasizing about: she's not living near us anymore she moved as well as my cuzns gf. I think she was marrried to her bf ( she has a bf/bfs when i fantasized about her). That did not work well, oh well atleast I knew her before I can even court her.. Anyways, what's done is done I still strive to move on even at times I fail to do so but its part of being human to commit mistakes over and over again.

Ive learned that the next relationship I have, I should always treasure like the previous one and try not to fall to traps/trials described above. Right now, the path to fixing my self continues and hopefully just like what barry manilow song's say I willl ready to take the chance again and hopefully I'll feel that feeling of being in love and be loved (cheesy bastard during those times lol)

there is still a lingering thought in me that states: what if those things didn't happen, what if we stayed together? well never know but one thing's for sure we may have different fates but it surely would be for our own good.

The stupidity of the network war

The news shows of channel 2 and 7 has turned from informative to vindictive. Suddenly the news became focused on both channels vendetta over the other. A part of their news broadcast now includes what is happening with the cheating/ manipulating scandal and their counter news on the other channels accusation. I believe that this portion of the network war has gone to whole new levels of stupidity. All they do is yak yak yak.. manipulation yak yak yak. court. Both channels have been KSP's trying to garner attention by adding such news in their broadcast. What do the viewers get from this? Aside from added hatred to the rival of their favorite network, nothing. Strike one is the so long commercials, strike two is the never ending "parinigan", Strike three is this stupid issue. Will somebody make this two channel shut the hell up. I find this things irritating. That's why I have the tendency to watch more cable channels than be engrossed in their war. Why just they blast each other with bombs so that well all be happy. ha ha. I hope the government puts a stop to this, well its just a dream a big dream... Anyways off I go then to watch the best channel in the country. Jack TV.... haha

I'm not in anyways connected to Jack TV or Solar Corporation. Just blurting whats inside my head..

Thoughts on Driving

I am new on driving alone, I'm used to my Dad instructing me when I drive. So pardon the driver if you see a Tammaraw FX that moves so slow or has tendency to commit driving mistakes, that driver is me. Sorry bago lang po. Anyways I realized that driving and having a vehicle is not only a privilege it is also a BIG responsibility. There are two personal driving experience I will never forget. One is when I hit a newly cleaned car while attempting to have the FX cleaned. Good thing the owner of the car (apparently a police man (gulp)) was not there. Good thing also that miraculously I hit the only the wheels and it is not noticeable (Lucky me) . The car was I think a new model. How did the policeman got the money to buy that car? Beats me. One things for certain I'm lucky, so darn lucky. The other incident was when I wanted to turn left to a bank. As I position the FX to the parking area, a loud bang was heard in the back portion. A man in his bike hit me. I was certain that I didn't hit him, because I was on a full stop and was gearing the steering wheel to the proper parking position. After some time the biker stood up and then went away. No discussions, no cursing he just went up and leave. Talk about luck huh. Well Ive learned my lesson and still continuing to do so. I try to be doubly extra careful when I drive. I also pray doubly harder so that i will not run out of luck. ha ha. With all the recent news on road accidents, and fatalities, it made me realize that driving is not just to impress ladies or ease travel time. It is a lifelong learning experience and it can create a big impact not only on my life but on the lives of drivers and commuters plying the streets. So see you in the streets as I take a ride in Effie the Tammaraw FX (It's so lucky). ha ha