To err is human, to forgive...define

Apparently, the internet people has become so full of themselves that forgiving one (ehem mocha ehem) is not the norm. The overacting and the “outrage” over the award given to her is laughable because it is a meaningless award.  And now the so called “netizens” (who hides behind pseudonames and pics) are very angry with her error of geographic proportions, i mean cmon give her a break. So bawal na magkamali lalo kung pro duterte, seriously.

Nowadays,  you cant call someone gay, nognog, bumbay or any racially insensitive joke without being called racist but you can call someone boba, fakenews, pokpok or any other insensitive stuff and still call yourself  “morally upright”

Speaking of being forgiven, i hope the people would forgive the mrt administrators for not fixing the trains as fast as they should, but then again everyone wants to get things done without realizing that there are things such as due process amd bureaucatic processes.


I hope i dont get bashed by the netizenry, if there is such a word.

The price of freedom

Today is the 8th of December, it marks the anniversary of the attack of pearl harbor. The attack at pearl harbor started the second world war which ended in defeat for the Japanese and semi-liberation of the Philippine Islands ( It was not until a few more years till this country was released from the "care" of the Americans.) Is the whole thing worth it?? Are the Filipinos truly worthy of freedom. As i look around me all i see are things that make us not worthy of being free.

Well for one we have political dynasties, ah yes the freedom to have electoral posts based on names and not capabilities. Do they mean that there are no other able bodied leader that can serve the people better aside from their relatives. We also have an economy that is by the numbers..a few feel its effects, most doesn't even know that we have an emerging economy. Then there is rampant criminality and immorality or the freedom to do what the hell they please (Where is the dark knight when you need him). There is also a decaying justice system, it can either be so slow or too lenient to those who have power and money. Cases could take years for those with no money but can be easily dismissed when you are influential and has a damn good lawyer.

Have you seen how our people act..They only think of their happiness and survival even if they step on the rights of others...We have videokes and drinking sessions in the streets up to the wee hours of the morning, their excuse its a sunday and they are just "nagkakatuwaan lang".. The most unruly people live in slums ( I understand they can't do anything about it because they don't have a good money making system and did not had a good education) but its not an excuse for them to do what they want all the time ..Its sad that those people living in slums would act like they own the land and would definitely die for it.

Don't even get me started on  controlling our ballooning population. Have those anti population control group been in a crowded mall or even a public transportation system? The common practice of human congestion due to uncontrolled population may lead to plagues and diseases..good thing bubonic plagues rarely happen or else...

These country has acquired so many problems over the years, some have tried doing something about it but its too many, solving one creates another. Illegal logging, illegal mining, corruption, gambling, prostitution, squatting you name it we have it here..there's one thing we don;t have though a long term solution to all these problems.

So is freedom worth it, i really don't know. Would our ancestors be proud of us?? Maybe, maybe not. One thing is for sure this country needs to be attacked again, not by invaders but by ideas that would revolutionize the living conditions of this country.

Man, I hated high school.

If you will ask me how i felt about high school, i could describe it in two words....HATE IT.  You see when i was in high school it was hell, the worst place you could ever be. During that time i had countless bullies, horrible teachers and a very rowdy environment. As i entered my first year and was still adjusting to the new school and environment what i got was bullies..bullies..bullies.. As the years progressed, i still face bullies in another shape and form but same intention, to humiliate and destroy me.. At least, my college life cured what those idiots did. I had horrible teachers, they usually let the bullies humiliate me or even add their own kind of insult. Don't get me wrong i also had good teachers, but what the horrible teachers did overshadowed what the good ones imprinted on me. Aside from bullies and teachers i really didn't like how the other students acted. That school is a catholic school and i came from another catholic school but as i remember my schoolmates in that other school didn't acted that way. Its like prison in that high school. Maybe its hormones or something like that. So there, if i don't attend your stupid reunions you now know why..Nothing in the foreseeable future would make me attend one.

My girls

Lola/Mommy Lola: Don't mess with her, she can be a modern gabriela silang especially when it comes to the rights and welfare of her family. She is one hip lola that tries to give advices that are unsolicited at times hehe.

Mom: A very firm lady at times but she only means well. The only girl in my life (the last time i checked.) She gives good advices that I usually don't agree with lol. She is a true mother figure that is always there for me whenever i did something good or bad. Without her i might be the baddest person in the planet. I just remembered. She is my number one taga reto aside from dad lol

Cousins (Joanne/Kaye/Loren): At some aspect i can say that i have a good relationship with the all of them. We shared some stories and insights.  With Joanne I can be intellectual, funny and like a kuya.I can relate to her well coz she basically grew up in my eyes (they lived downstairs before moving with my lola).  With kaye i could be cool (i think) and also an older brother. I've seen her grown up into a fine young woman. Although Loren is not here with us, her memories still affect me. I was one of those who took care of her when she was a baby. I will always remember her for her smile and her tss. I will miss that emo kid.

Friends: I have very few friends but among them there are 3 who have touched my life the most. Eeyan is my bestfriend, she gives me a call or text every now and then. She never fails to make me laugh whenever we meet. She asks me to come with her on "lakaran" and the like. Nia will always be dear to me. During my  dark..er times she was there for me. She was my constant ka usap sa phone and ka-debate on girls lol. Hazel holds a special place in my heart because she was my first gf and was the person I trusted the most. We had ups and downs but whatever happens i will always be here for her.

fade into darkness

this has been another bad day..although i did not go to work i still feel very tired..my career path has been on a very weird spiral so is my stupid lovelife..my emotions are getting the best of me and my body.. it seems ive lost control of my life and depression has made me think of thoughts I've never had...i feel like im batman holding a gun wanting to pull that trigger i got from a criminal..i think i need to do something drastic to change my life not to die but be a catalyst for change..tomorrow would be a good day to start..that is if my mind wouldn't change again..

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inceptional ranting

Just re-watched inception...i realize that sometimes or oftentimes i wish that everything happening right now is just part of a dream....Everything from the death of my brother to the failed relationship to the recent death of Lauren seems to happen only in dreams..

I change my mind my current plight seems not to be a dream but a nightmare..Having no work for a year, not being in a relationship for six years and recently the death of a kid you favored....The death of Lauren really got to me..one month she's healthy, the next she suddenly got sick then the next month she passes without much fight...I wish the "kick" mentioned in the movie would soon come in so that i would wake up from this nightmare...so that when i wake up ill see them again ( Lauren and Mamot I mean)..

Speaking of the movie Inception..a few days ago i experienced something weird..i tried to wake up for so many times only to wake up again after a few seconds.. I've forgotten most of the details but its just weird or maybe I'm just in a limbo state...